Lovato has spoken out before about suffering from an eating disorder and substance abuse and now she is opening up about how — even when she was in recovery for those things prior to her overdose — she was “miserable.”
“Regardless of what other people may have said or done, my actions put me in the seat that’s in front of you today,” she told CBS. “Unfortunately nobody can answer for my overdose but me.”
Lovato said she is not completely sober, but rather “California sober.” She still drinks occasionally and smokes some marijuana.
“I really don’t feel comfortable explaining the parameters of my recovery to people,” she said. “Because I don’t want people looking at my parameters of safety and think that’s what works for them … because it might not.”
At this point, Lovato says, she’s in a much better place.
“I feel so good,” she said. “I feel more joy in my life than I’ve ever felt because I’m not quieting or diminishing any part of myself.”